BKK'15 youngxholykids

 My long awaited getaway.

first post of 2015

2015

Can't believe it's already May. This year has been amazing so far and I cant be more thankful. There are so many things I wanna say and so much more I'm thinking about that I just cant put in words. Let's just say I hope I continue to find myself and be a better person.

insomnia

Hello there,

its 3:58am and I cant sleep.

I just painted my nails. I created a new color by mixing the nail polishes and I'm so happy with myself.

Have been so hooked to TV series lately I barely go out. Watched The Walking Dead, Vampire Diaries, The Originals, Avatar: Legend of Korra, Suits and now Gotham. Soon, Arrow. #bumlifechoseme

Christmas is coming and it's my favorite holiday (apart from Halloween that is).

But for the first time after so long, it'll be without you. That's fine though it's just different, different is good.

Come to think of it, I wonder what my next Christmas will be like once I'm done thinking of you. It's pretty exciting huh.

I can't wait to get this over and done with.

xx.

Daily make up routine

I have finally done a new video!!! enjoy~ :)

 xx.

30th november - So wrong

 I'm drowning. These sleepless nights and the never ending nightmare during the day, its consuming me. It's been half a year without you. I thought I was doing fine but you're still the last person I think of before I sleep and the first person I think of when I wake up whether I like it or not. I remember your face so vividly it drives me insane. The look on your face when you're fast asleep, your lips, your breath, your smell. When there's something funny, something important or anything at all, you'd pop right into my head first because I'd still wanna tell you everything. Maybe this is just part of a first heartbreak but anyone could be better but no one makes me laugh the way you do. I could be weird with you and feel completely normal but with others i'm just awkward and lame. Funny how your snores were so comforting and your laughter just makes me so so happy. I miss watching you eat, cooking for you, random weird dancing times, long bus rides that made me wish it'd last forever, quoting TV shows, watching you study ever so seriously and just being in your arms, all wrapped in your embrace. I still wear your clothes to sleep I dont even know why. Everything else is packed away, to think that having them being out of sight would mean that they were out of my mind..so wrong. Some days it gets easier but some days just get worst. Maybe today's just one of the worst days.

Maybe it'll get better.

october sixteenth

Hi. yeah.... hi.

So its........ October! How is everyone's october coming along? good? yeah? let's hope so. If its not, dont worry, tomorrow will always be a better day. ;)

I have no idea what to blog about so how about some pictures from whats left of my previous Icloud :)

 

I miss my nong nong hair :(

 Love this woman ♡

 The other day when I had some alone time I had my favorite TCC aglio oliooooo~

 & my cousin got my dream carrrrrr :(

 kittiessssss ♡ ♡ ♡

 My favorite colleagues from intern♡

 Roxanne and Roseanne hahahahahaha sorry im so lame

 Phuket with the Tiramisu Hero Crew~~

 Here's our villa btw. ITS A M A Z I N G.

 

 HAHAHA dont ask me why. it was fun.

 

HAHAHAH captain's ball with stockings. I cant even...

 haha my cute little wisdom tooth.

 

Common Man Coffee Roasters!! YUM YUM YUM. looking at this now is making me so hungry. Prolly one of the best churros I've tasted. (other than churrosity-aka my fav)

 Sunday Folks :)

sooooo yummmy okay goodnight.

ohoh! check out my Japan Day 1 video ;)

 

xx.

nothing much

Hi. So initially I had so many plans to be making videos and stuff. Unfortunately, my laptop failed on me. Hardware disk failure or whatever and everything's pretty much gone. Pictures, videos, everything. I'm not too sure if i am totally sad about it. But I guess everything happened for a reason and I guess these things were meant to be erased yknow? What sucks is that my old itunes playlist is gone and I am so short of time to be filling it up. I feel like.. I've lost track of my life. All I do is work, dance and sleep. Human interaction feels very unnecessary these days. It feels like I'm not meant to be here and I'm just born way too late. Its weird. I dont know how to cope and I'm not too sure what to do about anything. There are good days and there are bad.. nothing dramatic (thank god). Life's been pretty exhausting. & I feel absolutely hideous looking. I've gained some weight after my internship and I get sad sometimes about it. I have no mood to answer any questions on my askfm so please pardon me.

On a side note, I extracted two wisdom tooth this morning and I think I almost had an anxiety attack when I looked down and saw a glimpse of the needle. So ironic, supposedly anaesthetic makes you feel nothing but the hugeass needle makes you feel the most. Well at least its almost over. Another two to go. hooray(not)

AND!! I've been watching Orange is the New Black. Totally addicted to it. I cant stop and my body clock is messed up. alright back to it. Have a great week ahead if anyone still reads this.

xx.